Scaring myself to peices with this whole "finding out what my drugs do" thing.. Ignorence IS bliss... Went to Elliots natural foods today to get some Calcium pills, should have been taking those ANYWAYS... And there are so many different kinds!!! I was lost.. So one of the helper guys helped me.. and asked me why i was taking them, so I said it was couse the drugs I was on can cause ostioperosis, and started crying like a baby.. I hate it when I cry.. Im just so scared! Anywho, he's an asthmatic to, much much worse then me, and he recomended this Quercetin + C stuff... Im gunna ask either my un-caring Doc or my aunt who's the ER nurse about it before I invest a load of money.. (its like $17 a bottle!!) but he semed convinced it works...

Im so scared.. I knew i had some sort of asthma, but Im not NARLY as bad as an asthmatic! I mean, I have maybe had 1 real asthma attack in my life that i recognized, and it was after running 4 miles with the crazy PE teacher.. but it wasnt even really an attack, it just was very squeaky noises.... and now Im on all these drugs, which are steriodes and cortasteroides of something like that... *sniff* Im just a worry wort.. I know, Im being irrational.. and yet i cant stop driving myself nuts! And i thought i was able to handle my whole depression thing, and it turns out its my drugs that are helping me.. azmacort couses mania.. which is happynes... arg... oh well. :/

Anywho.. Minerva the oranda is starting to show signs of SBD (swim bladder disorder) like Sharky.. My mom wants me to move her into the 10 with Sharks, but I think its to crowded, and that would be to many nitrates... XP

On a good note, my tongue is much better!