And he laughs at my pain. bastard. He laughs at me, while Im crying over having to give up my chins! He hates me, and yet I cant seem to hate him back. I want to, I want to hate him so much. I want to hate him enough to bash in his windsheild and put virus's on his computer... but I dont.. I hate myself. I dont wanna give up my chins. I dont want to have to be here anymore. I wanna run away. but I cant. They have made it clear I'll never survive. god... I just wanna go....